Manusia ni macam macam ragam. Macam macam pe'el. Macam macam cekadak. Macam macam hal. Aku sendiri penat dengan manusia. Tapi,
See good things in people.
Been cheated on, been hurt, been lied to, been neglected. Been in situation yang sampai orang tak waras saja suruh teruskan. Any reasonable's akan bangkitkan isu dimana nisa bodoh. Nisa tak reti fikir. Kesian Nisa. Shit happened-- dan Nisa masih bodoh. Nisa masih cuba yang terbaik untuk melihat baik-baik saja pada orang. Nisa masih cuba berfikir yang orang jahat akan berubah. Tapi siapa kita untuk tentukan baik jahat seorang manusia sedangkan kita sendiri masih jauh untuk menjadi baik?
I'm not desperately looking for a boyfriend. No.
Untuk mempercayai orang tu sangat susah sekarang. Sampai bila-bila pun susah sebab kita tak boleh control apa-apa tentang orang lain especially when they decide to leave us, just like that. The fcking hurt reality that you can't control someone's loyalty no matter how good you are to them, how much they mean to you, doesn't mean they'll treat you and value you the same.
Treat how you want to be treated.
Butoh.
Sakitnya when you never missed a second to think about them, when you check on them every freaking time, but they just genuinely doesn't give a single shit.
Jujur. Aku nak someone yang everyday tanya hows my day even that time my day was just ok sitting around at home. Yang at least tell me they won't contact me in 2-3 days because they're busy doing some things. Being honest about everything, because we're best friends? I want someone who take random pictures, instastory random things about me when we meet because they like it not for the sake of showing off. Someone that check on me because they wanted to, not because of other intention. Someone just genuinely love me as me. Love us as us.
I miss being in love. To be loved by someone I love.
Sumpah aku letih dengan kepura-puraan melampau. Letih dengan segala kebohongan cilaka paling bangsat yang sebenarnya paling mudah kalau dijaga-- kesetiaan.